Friendship Man…

Friendship man…

 

Recently I have grown apart from two people I called my best friends. I have been best friends with them for 10 plus years but this past year has just been tough on us all. Deep down in my heart I wish that we could make up and just have everything go back to normal but life doesn’t work like that. For some reason this world has molded our minds into thinking that even the smallest of things are a big deal. It has blinded us from seeing what really matters and that is that we don’t have all the time in the world here. Everyday goes by faster and faster. Yet most of us spend time dwelling on the past and we let in ruin our tomorrow’s. What I’m trying to get at here is that the friendship that I had with these girls was different than any other friendship I have seen in my years growing up, in a good way that is. It was way more special than the types of friendships other girls had my age. Now I don’t know if that’s because I’m bias because I was a part of this friendship but I do know that over the past 10 plus years we have had some of our best and worst moments by each other’s sides. Now to see it all going down the drain, it hurts. There are a lot of factors that play into why we aren’t talking anymore. I’m not going to go into detail on anything because I feel that that’s something that only needs to be kept between the three of us. I wish we could all see the true reality of things and realize that most people do not stay friends for as long as we have, and seeing that makes me only believe that that is because we are true friends. We were all meant to be best friends but we let life get in the way. If this really is the end of our friendship I am going to be sad, and I am going to have to work on moving on. When it comes to these situations I want to tell you guys some inspirational/motivational crap about how everything is going to be okay. The reality of it all though is that I am going to miss them, and if it is the end that I just wish them the best and I thank them for all the years of friendship. That’s all I can say at this point in time.

 

I love you guys and I hope you guys can understand and maybe some of you can even relate. You all have a great rest of your day and if you have a best friend don’t forget to remind them how important they are in your life before life tries to seem more important.

 

XOXO LEXIE

I Need Your Advice: Please Read!

For me when I’m feeling anxious I just get out my journal and if I don’t have that around then I get to use you WordPress. Thanks for being there for me.

This whole anxiety thing lately has been so frustrating for me to deal with. I feel like I can’t do anything anymore without having to pop a pill to calm down. A lot of the time it strikes me in the car when I’m driving or even if I’m just riding along in the car. I’m not afraid to be in the car or anything, I’m a pretty reckless person. Anxiety is something for some people that just happens for no reason at all. That’s what it’s like for me most of the time. I do have certain situations where I will be going to work and get anxious about that, so not all of my anxiety is caused by nothingness. I have been trying to work hard to get this shit tackled and held down but I’m still working on it. I just started some new medications so I am hoping to see improvement. I would really like your guys advice on what it is I should do, that you might do, that helps you guys when you have anxiety. I think that with May being Mental Health Awareness Month, this is the perfect time to really get everything under control and to beat this illness!

 

Thanks for reading and please comment and let me know if you guys have any advice for me!

XOXO LEXIE

When Will the Party End

You tell them you don’t want a relationship and that you just want to be friends. Then they fall in love with you.

I met a guy, he was a cool guy you know, we got along great. We started hanging out and right from the beginning I told him I don’t do the whole relationship and feelings thing right now. He said he was fine with just being friends so I thought everything was going good. Then something happened that set him off. I hung out with his best friend. He did not like this and this is where he ended up telling me he loved me. This is some crazy movie type shit and I’m just a girl in college trying to get a degree. I told him that I was sorry but I don’t feel the same way. The funny thing is is that he got mad at me because I didn’t feel the same way and here I am. Writing about it. Well this was a little story about a recent event in my life haha. When will the party end right?

XOXO LEXIE

How You Can Make Everyday a Better Day

I’ve been working on going throughout my days with new strategies and a better attitude.

Instead of going throughout my day always thinking about the next move and worrying about stuff I have to do I just stop and think about the now. The music on the radio, the weather outside, how I’m feeling in that moment of time. I look around and name things that I’m grateful for like the trees that give us oxygen or things I don’t see at the moment but am still grateful for like another day of life and my amazing family and friends. Doing these little things everyday really changes my attitude about everything. Yes there are some things that are hard not to worry about but you just have to remember that everything’s going to be okay. That whatever it is you are going through you will get through it. You guys are loved, and amazing, and each so unique in your own ways that you need to learn to express.

I hope this helps some of you and I hope some of you practice this throughout your days as well. Thank you for reading in on today’s post!

XOXO LEXIE

Writing a Book

I want to start working on writing my first book. 

I have a few ideas. I just don’t know where to start. I guess I should just start by writing something, anything. I could go and start writing a children’s book or I could write a funny adult book about things that I just don’t care for or a motivational book. There are so many options but I just wanted to inform you guys that this is in the future plans of mine and with summer coming up I’m excited to start working on it and start this journey.

The best idea I have right now would be a book titled something along the lines of “The Book For Millennial’s. It would just be about everything that millennial’s deal with growing up being Millennial’s. From the 2000’s babies to the way adults treat us like we don’t know what a home phone is.

Let me know if you have any advice on how to start a book and how to get it up for people to see.

Thank you

XOXO LEXIE

My Ex is Calling From Prison…

Lately my ex has been calling and sending me letters from prison.

 

This ex was my first love. I know I have bad taste in men if that is what you’re thinking but he was different when I fell for him. I fell for the real person he was and then he just turned into something he wasn’t and got into a lot of trouble because of it. He’s been calling for a few months now and I used to answer but I stopped answering his calls because I honestly hate hearing his voice. He just sounds like a completely different person and it gives me the chills. I didn’t want to just leave him hanging so I wrote him a letter saying why I wasn’t answering and basically just told him all of the reasons he fucked up my life. I then received a letter back from him, two actually at this point, and he says stuff like “our bond is unbreakable” and “you are the love of my life.” Considering we’ve been broken up for over 3 years now I find this a little odd. I think he is just lonely in prison and wants to have something to rely on when he gets out. I’m sorry to say but that’s not going to be me. I told him I would always be there for him and I will but only to an extent. Not an “I will love you forever” extent but a “I will always care for you” kind of thing. He gets out in less than a year and I have to say I’m a bit nervous. In the last letter he sent me he spelled my name wrong… like this is what I get for 6 months of being in a relationship with you and you can’t even spell my name right. How crazy is that? Anyways there’s never a dull moment in my life and I will keep you guys updated on this whole thing. I think I’m going to write him a letter today just telling him how he spelled my name wrong and that I personally believe he is only saying the things he is because he is lonely and desperate. I will try and put it a little nicer and not sound rude but I just have to be up front and honest with him about everything.

I think I just need to cut all ties from him until I’m ready to talk to him about everything.

That’s what is happening in my life right now.

Please comment and leave me some advice and tell me what you would do! Thanks for reading!

XOXO LEXIE

This is not the End

     I recently had an experience that has been hard to come back from so I wanted to share a few inspirational words with you guys. 

 

It’s funny because right when you think you have everything together it all falls apart again. I learn that that’s what makes us stronger. That doesn’t change the fact though that we still have to re-pick up all of those pieces and it sucks. It can be hard, frustrating, and sometimes scary knowing how quickly a good moment can go bad. Are we gonna let that stop us though? Hell no, we are going to try our best and go through everyday knowing that we have the choice to be happy and that every day is our day. Yeah sometimes it isn’t that easy but that doesn’t mean you should give up. Keep trying and pushing yourself because you will get to where you want to be. But only if you truly want it.

 

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XOXO LEXIE